Alone in my head

Alone in my head,
I'm feeling so low,
You wont understand,
No one can know.

My eyes are so tired, 
I can't sleep at night,
Your face haunts my dreams,
When I turn out the light.

It happened so suddenly, 
It happened so fast,
I knew all at once, 
That none of this would last.

Was I just a game?
Was this all just for fun?
Did my feelings matter, 
To anyone? 

"This didn't mean anything",
That's what you said,
As I was so shamefully,
Getting up from your bed.

I held my head high,
As I walked by your side,
Tears welling up,
I was dying inside.

Weeks have passed,
Keeping secrets, telling lies, 
I don't have the strength, 
To look either of them in the eyes. 

My heart has been broken,
Not once, but twice,
Once by my best friend,
Once by the love of my life.

Deep down inside,
I know it's my fault,
So I'm just going to lock it, 
Away in my vault. 

Sometimes I still think of you,
When I'm lying in bed,
Still all alone,
Inside of my head.

*Written by someone else

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Comments (5)

  1. pixelheart

    very nice poem! :’)

    January 22, 2015
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    2. littlegirlbigheart

      Thank you for reading

      January 23, 2015
      1. pixelheart

        January 27, 2015
  2. plantingrealseeds

    Hopefully this person moved on instead of killing themselves. Sounds like she got played. Can’t put to much into people anymore. They’ll slight you, just for the fun of it. Especially if you let them. You’re the only best friend you have…..but it is your life, do what you want.

    January 23, 2015
    1. littlegirlbigheart

      She’s thankfully alive. This poem was written when she was going through a messy divorce, finding comfort in someone who turned out to be using her etc but she only shared the poem after getting her life back on track. And yes I think it’s true, you are your own best friend.

      January 23, 2015